What a day! Went for bv audition (finally).. But I didn't get in la. The whole procedure was emotional draining.. There were butterflies in my stomach even when I was in the train on the way there.. then in the bus to suntec.. right up to the building.. then! About 5 mins before my turn I didn't feel nervous at all! Even until I enter the room and greeted the judges (sis bel and ali).. Even until I said "The song i'm going to sing is 'If I Kissed You' by Corrainne May" Ok still not nervous.. UNTIL! I started to sing.. oh my goodness lor. To start off the room was kinda small with nothing else. So when I sang my voice was so loud! So it was kinda scary to hear it actually.. I mean I didn't expect that.. Then I felt really nervous. Like every mistake would be magnified.. My voice started to quaver like I never expected it.. (At least there was sound coming out.. For the et zone people, if you remember there was once I shared my testi during one of the meetings.. I couldn't even start!!! So I just stood on stage and kept trying to make some sound.. So after a few funny noises the friction slowly got lubricated so it was fine at the end.. Oh some even thought I was crying LOL!!) Ok that was bad.. And so now it was quite an improvement I think.. Imagine singing in front of 2 of the best singers in our church.. But too bad nervous breakdown.. I even forgot my lyrics! So I paused a while and that was bad~

Wanna know their comments? (Write the good ones first =P)
-They like my attitude woo~
-Sis ali said my voice was nice when I sang the low parts =)!
-They said I enjoyed the song.. (Well I tried to 'integrate' myself into the song.. But nervous and enjoy don't seem to go together! huh?)

Ok now the bad ones..
-Too nervous
-Pitching wasn't right for some parts
-My voice was too airy
-Nasal problem

YA!!! See.. Clarinase is only good for nose.. My nasal passage is still blocked! So I must see a doctor to remove the excess mucus between my nose and my throat.. I don't know what region is that called.. And ya pitching.. Steph told me to try singing my the piano.. And ya I wanna take up vocal lessons! After my A lvl.. So much for now..

You know actually I'm not a 'vocal' person, as in I find it hard to express myself in words.. That's why I tend to pay attention to lyrics of songs which expresses what I can't.. As a young girl I was really quiet and soft-spoken so most of the time I was not involved in class discussion and stuff and I was mostly in a corner hahaha.. So I guess sometimes a part of that still manifest itself.. And so I don't really dare to speak in front of a lot of people.. If I ever do, you will start to hear my quavering voice =) So that's a part which I have to work on. I guess I've really come a long way man.. *pat myself on my head* (ok looks silly I know wahaha) And my dear friends thanks for shaping me into the person I am now and thanks for your constant encouragement and support which keep me going =) Of course if I nv been to church I guess I'd still be the same old Aileen that they used to know.. Hee.. Thank God for changing me! =)

*Still a long long long way to my dreamsss*